I’ve been writing about Hudson almost every day since she died. I wanted to capture every memory, paint a picture of this beautiful little girl, vent my frustration at the universe, etc. I did it for me, because it kept me from losing my mind in the darkest days of my sadness. I did it for my husband, because I know he loves to read about her.
It’s a lot.
I feel like it is time to start sharing what I’ve been writing about Hudson. I’ve debated it from just about every side…
“A lot of this writing is only really meaningful to me.”
“I don’t want to depress people with some of the darker things.”
“Is the “Meet Baby Dub” blog the best place for this kind of content? Do I start a new blog? Can I just let the Meet Baby Dub blog sit idle?”
And on and on. But in the end, this stuff is me. It’s Hudson. It’s the Hubs. My family might find some of this writing helpful. My friends might like to hear about her brief life. Someone I don’t even know who has experienced loss might find healing through our shared experience.
So I’m going to start sharing things. Ever since we knew there was a Baby Dub, we loved her with every fiber of our being. Her story continues today, 9 weeks after her birth. She continues to make a difference and shapes who I am every day.
Such a powerful little human being.
It’s time to tell the rest of the story.